In that time, I have thought about this little blog a lot. What do I truly want to say and share?
I know I want authenticity. I want to give hope and encourage others on this journey called life. I want to share Gospel that is Christ through love. I want write from my heart.
I have had several blogs through the years – a more personal/family blog, a homeschooling blog, a running blog. But this one is different.
This one is my heart. This blog started almost two months ago when I was very sick.
This one has me using my voice to share what God has put on my heart and what He is showing me in my life.
This one comes out of a deep desire to write.
This blog is born out of encouragement from a few close friends/family and an English instructor that told me I have a voice for writing.
And so I write.
But sometimes I am afraid to write. I have tons of ideas but I worry they won’t come out just right. Or maybe my blog design is wrong. Or maybe I need to read another thousand blog posts about writing/blogging. Then I end up viewing other blogs and get caught in the comparison trap.
And that is no good because then I feel parazlyzed to write. I dance with it all day long. I sit down to write then get distracted by whatever else I decide to do. Then I tell myself that I will write later. But later never comes. Or at least not for several days.
I also forget that all good things come through practice and hard work. It takes discipline to sit and write.
Crystal Paine at MoneySavingMom (one of my favorite bloggers) said something about starting a blog that has challenged me this week. She said,
Stop collecting more information. Go and apply what you already know. Write from the heart, what you’re inspired about, and what’s working and what’s not working. Share your own life and unique perspective.
There it is.
Be myself. Write what is on my heart. Stop collecting information about blogging. Stop comparing myself to others. Just write.
I’ve learned this isn’t going to be an easy road. It will take time, dedication, discipline, and loads of practice. But I’m beginning to see the hope of something new and the conviction to just do it.