Rest. It’s not something I do so well with. How ’bout you?
It seems in this day and age, activity equates value. Add that to the fact that I am wired as a “doer” and getting things done is simply my love language. To-do lists make me happy and checking things off my to-do list makes me ecstatic! Yes, I’m one of those crazies who will add stuff to her to-do list after it has been done just so I can cross it off! Anyone relate?
But recently, God is showing me that I must take time to slow down. To be present. To be intentional. And not always get so focused on getting something accomplished. Taking more time to listen, to send that much-needed text to a friend, and to look my kids in the eye when they are talking is more important than multi-tasking.
And while I’m a work in progress in this area, it seems resting has come to the forefront for a season in my life. A few days ago, I was diagnosed with Bell’s Palsy– a crazy little thing that has paralyzed a cranial nerve on the right side of my face – leaving me with a lopsided smile, an eye that doesn’t close very well, and eating/drinking/talking bring on a whole new set of challenges.
Some cases are mild and resolve quickly and others seem to be more extreme. Per a dear friend, I’m an overachiever at heart; so of course, I have to fall into the “profound” category and have a textbook case that includes every symptom listed. I had another consultation with my doctor today, and the news is that this will “just take time.” Time. Rest. More time. More rest.
And for this girl who does NOT rest well, this is a tough order. Yet, I really have no choice in the matter. Stress and exertion seem to be exacerbating it. Talking too much does too. (I wouldn’t say my family is complaining too much about that one!)
So I’m trying to learn how to rest. But more than that, I want to lean in and hear what God is saying through all this and how I can grow and change for the better through this crazy ordeal.
Sometimes rest is the last thing we think we need when there is so much to be done but maybe that’s the irony; when there is so much to be done, rest is really what we need.