A friend told me that this Bell’s Palsy thing would be a blessing. I wasn’t sure I believed her, but I knew she spoke from a place of experience and trust. She told me to find a scripture and every time it got hard, just go to that verse and hang on to hope.
So I did.
“Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today…The Lord will fight for you; you only need to be still.” ~ Exodus 14:13-14
I don’t do “still” very well. My friend even said, “Darcy, I can just see all those wheels turning in your head and you are trying to figure out what to do.”
She knows me well. Try to fix it. Take control. Find an answer. Push through until it changes.
And yet I knew everything in me was telling me to just be still.
Not surprisingly, my body was saying the exact same thing. It didn’t matter what I wanted to do or tried to do, I was too exhausted to do it.
Life has been a little busy and frankly, just hard these last few years.
One disappointment, loss, or challenge has come our way. Some big. Some small. And for every hope or glimpse of good, we were hit with something else that broke our hearts.
And for me that meant anything but to be still. Staying busy can be a necessary coping skill, but sometimes we just don’t what else to do so we just get busier.
Eventually though rest must come. Our bodies and mind demand it. And if we don’t stop to rest, I truly believe God allows things to slow us down and to get our attention.
That is when I changed my perspective to see the blessings in this craziness and when I did…
Rest came. Allowing it to be a blessing meant sleep…a lot of sleep!
Clarity came. Allowing it to be a blessing helped my husband and I easily make some decisions regarding our family that previously were unclear.
Relief came. Allowing it be a blessing relieved me of the burden to try to hurry up and fix it.
Peace came. Allowing it to be a blessing gave me peace and permission to just be still.
Is everything perfect now? No. Do I have all the answers? No. Is it hard to be still? Yes!
But I am learning to accept the unexpected gifts in being still. And those blessings of rest, clarity, relief and peace change everything.